8/13/2014

BURNOUT


Top - OASAP*, Pants - H&M,  Shoes - LWS*,  Hat - Vintage,  Ring - Indiska


Hi there readers! I haven't been writing too much lately. I'd say most of it is due to stress. I've been under a lot of it in the last few months. Unfortunately and fortunately! So many wonderful opportunities came up during this summer so suddenly that I've been occupied with dealing with them most of the time. That is, when I haven't been at work cleaning hotel rooms. And it seems that these great things still keep popping up, like a never ending flow of goodness. To mention some of those things, I'm involved in a book project called SHARE, which will be published by TNHP in October. I've also been shooting a lot of new material. For one thing, I was lucky enough to be presented the opportunity to shoot some promos and an album cover for an upcoming artist at Universal, a very talented one I might add. I'm so hyped about it because I genuinely like her music! I'm actually not really sure how much I'm allowed to speak about this so I better hush for now though...

So, a lot of goodness. But with that also comes the pressure of succeeding. Something that my moronic brain realizes is pointless but nevertheless keeps doing. I mean, what's the worst thing that could happen? I'd fail to take some good shots. Big deal, I'd probably learn from my mistakes and move on. But no, it will all sit in the back of my mind as a massive tension maaany weeks before the actual event. I actually think that might have been part of the reason why I had a burnout last Saturday. The kind of burnout when you faint. So I hadn't been spending a night out in a very long time and last Saturday decided to do something about it. It was fun. Until I felt like throwing up (not because I was too drunk, I swear) and on my way to the ladies room lost consciousness and fell to the ground like a rock. I remember a lot of people, both familiar and strange buzzing around me, being kind and helpful. It all turned out well in the end, thanks to me being surrounded by a bunch of wonderful folks. And quite frankly I think it was a good thing. Because it kinda opened my eyes and made me realize I hadn't been taking care of myself amidst of all of those crazy things happening to me. I had placed my own well being at the very bottom. The stress was only a fraction of the cause, though. I also hadn't been eating well in a long period of time, mostly because of my job. And then there was the fact that it was a hot night and I wasn't exactly sipping water.

Pretty hectic a summer I've had. Hoping it will all settle down a bit once school starts. At least I wont be as physically exhausted as I have been this far thanks to work. And I'm sure after three years of absence from the school bench it might even be slightly exciting. But most of all I'm looking forward to moving out from my parents house and settling down with my boyfriend, which hopefully will happen soon. Can't deny the fact that I'm also pretty stoked about getting to decorate our apartment as I wish, hehee (Ikea here I come)! Lastly I shall share with you an amazing track by The Knocks. Enjoy!


  

2 comments:

  1. Vähän siistin kuulonen toi sun projekti! Taidanki arvata kuka se artisti on ;)
    Mut tosi kiva asu, ja hienoja kuvia taas kerran! ♥

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    1. Hehee, oon kyllä aika täpinöissä! :D
      Ja kiitos! Kiva et tykkäilet :)

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